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This summer I sat on an exam table in an ER in Denver and heard a phrase I had hoped never to hear: “I’m very sorry, but we can’t find a heartbeat.”

I was in the ER after a car accident, where they confirmed that I was only bruised, not badly injured, but that the baby I was carrying had died perhaps a week earlier, at nine weeks gestation. The doctor called it a “missed miscarriage,” which is when the fetus has died but the mother’s body hasn’t yet shown any of the usual signs of miscarriage such as cramping or bleeding. My body still felt pregnant, but the baby was gone.

I declined the Misoprostol and D&C and flew home to let my body complete the process naturally. It took another couple of weeks, a round of acupuncture and Chinese herbs and a dramatic onslaught of bleeding before the fetus finally passed from my body.

Several months have now passed and I have learned a great deal about how to heal both the body and the heart after the loss of a pregnancy.

If you find yourself in this lonely and tender place, I hope the information in this article will help support you in preparing to conceive again.

 

Support Your Body In Healing

Miscarriage is a traumatic experience for the body, as well as the heart. In my case, I experienced labor-like contractions for several days before the actual miscarriage, during which I had significant blood loss. I then had follow-on complications which required medical support, including a round of heavy-duty antibiotics.

After a miscarriage you may feel surprisingly postpartum, with extended bleeding, a roller coaster of hormones and emotions, and bone-tired exhaustion. You may have night sweats or other trouble sleeping. It can be beneficial to supplement with additional Iron and Vitamin D and may also be a good idea to take extra Vitamin C and Echinacea to ward off infections. It is a good idea to stay hydrated and eat protein-rich, healthy and simple foods. Check with your doctor to see what he or she recommends for your particular situation.

Let yourself rest as much as you need to – your body has been through a lot and is in recovery. You may need to sleep longer and nap or sit down more often. Too much strenuous activity will wear you out quickly and may increase your bleeding significantly. You may need some extra help during this time to keep up with household obligations. The six-week recovery period recommended for recovery after birth very much applies after a miscarriage.

During those six weeks, take precautions to avoid an infection. My doctor warned me against intercourse until the bleeding subsided, but other sources also warn against hot tubs, douching and even baths. Even if you follow all of the precautions, as I did, your body may retain some tissue that could trigger an infection. Watch for the warning signs, which include cramping or tenderness in the uterus and abdomen, fever, or foul-smelling discharge. See a doctor immediately if you have any of these symptoms.

Preparing To Conceive After Miscarriage

Photo by Doña Bumgarner.

Process Your Grief

After my miscarriage, I felt angry for a long time before I felt sad. I worried that I was somehow at fault, that I had done something or failed to do something that put the pregnancy at risk. I was ashamed that my body had failed to keep this baby alive. I worried that I was too old to have another viable pregnancy. I was afraid I might not want to try again and risk another loss. I pulled away from my partner and grew impatient with my toddler daughter. I was angry at my body for the complications and how long it took to heal. It took several months for me to feel like myself again.

The grieving process looks different for everyone and in every situation. There are several things that may help:

  • Talk to people who have been there. When I miscarried I couldn’t think of anyone I knew who had experienced this kind of loss. But when I started talking to my friends about my experience I found out that several of them had recently miscarried and I never knew. Not only did those conversations help affirm my feelings, they brought us closer as friends.
  • Create a closing ritual. Whether your loss was very early in the pregnancy or there was a tiny body to bury, give yourself the gift of a ritual to mark your loss and remember your baby. You may want to plant a tree, choose a name for your baby, or create some other memorial.
  • Find someone to talk to. Talk to your partner about your feelings. He will be processing his own grief and sharing your sadness and healing will support for both of you. You may also find support from family, a grief councilor or other therapist, or support groups and forums for women who have experienced loss.
  • Treat depression if needed. If you or people close to you are worried that you are showing signs of deep or ongoing depression, seek treatment. Untreated depression can be dangerous, especially once you conceive again.
  • Give yourself time. Grief has its own timeline. It doesn’t end just because you want it to, or your husband is ready to try again, or your friends think you should be feeling better by now. Allow yourself to feel what you feel for as long as it takes. Be prepared for sadness to come up again at milestones, such as your expected due date, or the date you found out you were pregnant, or the anniversary of the loss.

 

Try Again When You are Ready

Different practitioners offer varying advice on how long to wait before conceiving again. Some say it is safe to try again as soon as the bleeding stops. My OB recommended two months and my midwife suggested three. The main reason for waiting is to allow your body to have at least one normal period before conception, which will allow clear dating of the next pregnancy.

My acupuncturist’s perspective on the healing process was this: The first month allows the body to clear the pregnancy tissue and hormones. The second month allows your cycle to regulate. The third month is for your heart. In my experience it really does take this long, if not longer, to grieve, so this advice makes a lot of sense to me.

Talk to your own practitioners and your partner to determine what is right for you both physically and emotionally.

Preparing To Conceive After A Miscarriage

Photo by Doña Bumgarner.

Prepare For Pregnancy

If you have had repeated miscarriages, it may be a good idea to talk to a professional about testing to identify potential causes of your losses. However, if this was your first miscarriage, the odds are good that you will conceive again easily and have a healthy pregnancy.

Preparing your physical body to conceive after a miscarriage is no different than preparing to conceive at any other time: Eat well, take prenatal supplements, avoid smoking and alcohol, track your cycles so that you know when you are most fertile.

Preparing your heart may take a little more effort. Even if you have made peace with the actual miscarriage, being pregnant again will likely bring up fears and tenderness for you. Many women say that their fears tend to ease after they pass the milestone of the previous loss, but some women experience anxiety all the way through subsequent pregnancies. Talk about your feelings with people you trust and seek help if the anxiety or sadness feels out of control.

Conceiving again after a pregnancy loss takes great courage and faith. These things will be most available to you if you have allowed both your body and your heart adequate support and time to heal.

 

If you have experienced a miscarriage, what did you find most useful in helping you be ready to conceive again?

 

Doña Bumgarner is a mama, writer and blogger.  You can read her struggles and triumphs in practicing self care at Nurtured Mama. You can also connect with her on Twitter, Facebook, and Pinterest.

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5 Comments

  1. Dona, I am so sorry. It is not something I ever experienced, but I can only just imagine how devastating it was.
    Love,
    Madeline

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  2. I have suffered two losses one at 10weeks after a confirmed heartbeat and one somewhere around 4-5 weeks. They both were devastating but in different ways. The first I had become very attached to the pregnancy because I had known about it for 6 weeks at the time and we had seen the baby on an ultrasound with a heartbeat 5 hours before losing it. Right after that loss I wasn’t sure I ever wanted to try again. It was so painful. 3 years later we started trying again and lost the first baby I became pregnant with. That loss happened a week after we got a positive pregnancy test. This time around I very much wanted to get right back to trying again. I don’t know if it was because I didn’t feel as attached to this baby and/or because I really wanted another baby. We started trying as soon as I stopped bleeding and conceived right away. We are currently almost 13 weeks pregnant with our rainbow baby. But not a day goes by that I don’t think of my two precious babies that I didn’t get to meet here on this earth. I guess I say all of that to say that sometimes each loss is very different and what’s right after one loss may not be after another. Listen to your doctor’s, your body and above all your heart!

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  3. Hi Dona,

    Like you, I have also lost my baby. Actually I’ve had two miscarriages and I’m only 20. After I lost my first one it took such a long time to recover. It honestly took a good three months. I was in such a deep depression. After that I felt compelled to try again knowing I failed the first time. Pregnancy is a tease, it’s not what it is in movies. So why are people so hush hush about miscarriages? Props to you for speaking out.

    Both my loses we’re missed miscarriages. I lost one at 6 weeks and my second at 9. I decided to get genetic testing during my second d&c. Turns out I had a daughter with turners syndrome, very common. I guess when you get pregnant it’s like rolling dice and you don’t always get lucky. Sometimes even two times in a row. That’s what my doctor told me and didn’t tell me anything else.

    The absolute best help in my healing process is talking to complete strangers because they don’t know you and can’t judge. That’s actually what I’m doing right now at 1 in the morning. I honestly just want to relate to someone. The sadness doesn’t ever go away but life just goes on. I think about it everyday. Stay strong and when you do get pregnant don’t feel guilty! It’s not your fault.

    I believe everything happens for a reason. (I know you’ve probably had people tell you that and hate that) In my case it’s different, this whole experience has given me faith in some sort of god or just something. I know my daughter and what I think was my son are in a better place together, whatever that place may be.

    I am now preparing to concieve again actually not now but in the next year or so. If you ask your doctor they will provide minor testing like checking your thyroid and blood pressure etc. I wish you the best of luck conceiving again. Thanks for the great blog post.

    Love,
    Natalie

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  4. Hi Dona, I appreciate your article as I have experienced that same. All I can say is that, my heart is torn and very sad. Though I try to live my life as nothing happened but deep inside i know, this happened to me ‘twice’ in a year 2013. I felt it is the right time, I felt perfectly happy and i tried again. Just on 7th week both time, it happened to me again. There is no doctor who can clearly state what is wrong with me? or what is wrong here?.I wanna give up and move on but deep down i still have this motivation that says, “keep trying – don’t give up” because i would be disappointing myself as well as my family members. I wanna laugh and make fun of myself for believing myself pregnant. It hurts still.

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